May 2, 2007

Verses of the Day:
“This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.” (1 John 5:14-15)

“And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.” (Hebrews 11:6)

Yesterday was quite hectic. I had an OB appointment in the morning. Afterwards, I went to Wal-Mart to purchase some bins to kick-off my new (personal) 30-Day Organizational Challenge. When I arrived home I made an appointment with my Primary Care Physician to look at my eye. I had a couple hours to spare before my appointment, so I did as many of my daily chores as I could. Then it was off again to the doctor's. After the doctor's appointment, I spent some time playing with DearDaughter outside since she had been sitting all day long. We stayed outside until DearHubby came home and then I was off to the dentist for a routine check-up and cleaning. All went well...It was 6:00pm by this time and I didn't even want to think about cooking when I got home. I still had to run to the pharmacy to drop off my prescription for my pink eye (and yes, it is pink eye). So, I called the local Chinese Restaurant and placed an order. On the way home, I stopped by an ATM machine to pick up cash for the Chinese food, picked up the food, and then dropped off my prescriptions. I got home, prepared the table and food for dinner. We ate dinner and put DearDaughter to bed. Then I ran back out again to pick up my prescriptions. When I finally sat down with DearHubby around 9pm, I expressed to him how stressed I felt, not only by today, but by my schedule for the rest of the week and next. I just felt like crying because I just know how beat tired I am only after a few chores and errands. However, I knew if I cried, I'd just irritate my pink eye even more so I held back the tears. But yeah, my heart is still anxious because I've been really good about keeping the house in order these past few weeks by being diligent in keeping up with my daily chores and I know that a few missed days of chores means an accumelation of things to do and when I fall behind it's hard finding the time and energy to catch up. Also, when I am anxious and stressed as I feel, I am more likely to be unkind and angry and as an example, I yelled at DearDaughter yesterday because she didn't want to keep still while I changed her diaper and we would have been late for my doctor's appointment if I didn't change her within a certain time period. If I had planned things better I know things would have gone smoother, but sometimes, like yesterday, there is just no time...

Well, the only thing I can think to say to myself is, "You just gotta keep giving it to God." That's what faith is, giving it to the Lord for our help and our salvation, knowing that we are not strong enough or even wise enough to do it at all on our own. Then, in faith, He will give us what we desire and my strongest desire is to do His will, even if that means not losing my temper or getting angry because I am stressed.