I actually need some cheering today...
The Lord's been answering my prayers...For quite some time I've been discouraged about Motherhood because I just felt like all I was doing during the day was just struggling to get through it, fighting fires all day, rather than enjoying these little girls the Lord has blessed us with. As DearHubby and I read Lamentations 3 last night, the author said some words that I have thought, "He has filled me with bitterness,...my soul is bereft of peace; I have forgotten what happiness is; so I say, 'My endurance has perished; so has my hope from the LORD.'" Yeah, I was feeling like this about Motherhood. So, for some time now, every day, I have prayed that the Lord would show me how to enjoy and savor these little blessings.
Well, as Lamentations 3 goes on, the author says, "The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases, his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. 'The LORD is my portion,' says my soul, 'therefore I will hope in him.'"
Yeah, great is HIS faithfulness because He has answered my prayers about my little blessings! For the past several weeks I've been spending as much time here at home trying to find the best routine for us. This Monday, I finally sat down and wrote out a very detailed daily routine. I tested it out on Tuesday and tweeked it a little. I tested it out on Wednesday and Thursday and I have been enjoying and having so much fun with my girls! I have time to spend one on one time with them and I have time to get chores done. For once I can truly say that I ENJOY being a mom.
Well, today, I am just feeling a bit blue...I am tired...
Motherhood is such a permanent job and there is no day off...Today is just one of those day, where if I were at work, and had a lot of vacation time, I would take a vacation day to just rest...[Sigh]
Part of this new daily routine is planning out my day with the girls...Their morning and afternoon activities together, their morning and afternoon activities by themselves, their morning and afternoon activities with mommy together, and their morning and afternoon activities with mommy one on one. It's good that I planned for today, last night, because I would not have had the zeal to spend time with my girls and probably would have just depended on the TV to keep them entertained for most of the day. However, I've been so mechanical because I feel so drained...It doesn't help that it is raining out...
I keep wondering if this blah feeling has something to do with the UTI that I have also?
Last week I felt uncomfortable and went to the doctor for a urine test. It came out negative at the office, but they had it sent out. I knew I had an infection and had hoped they would just give me the antibiotics, but they didn't because of the negative test results. Well, finally, one week later, they called in and told me that the lab results showed I was negative for a UTI. I haven't had the opportunity to go out today to pick up my medicine, but I wonder what effects a UTI has on a body after 1 week of hanging around? [Sigh]
Anyway, I'm going to have some one on one time with DearDaughter1 and get a few chores taken care of before having to feed DearDaughter3 and get dinner started...DearHubby's been working on our addition and he has some help over tonight, which means having to put the girls to bed by myself, again...So tired...[Sigh]