humble and meek
Lord let me lift up
Those who are weak
And may the prayers of my heart always be
"Make me a servant (2x) today!"
Hello, from California!
I wasn't expecting to write a post from here, but I am blessed tonight to be able to steal a little time to do so!
It is about 9:30pm and in about 20 minutes I will be getting ready to go to bed. My days here have started early and so I've been trying to be diligent about getting to bed at a decent hour.
My sister just had a baby a couple weeks ago and I wanted to be here to help her out. Little D is my sister's 4th child and so with my 2 little ones, there are 6 children in the house, 5 of which are 4 years old and younger. DearDaughter1 has had a difficult time adjusting to her new setting and has been a real handful. Being here without DearHubby to help out has been an even greater challenge. Needless to say, just watching the children has been a great chore. However, God is good and gracious in giving me strength in my time of weakness and we are persevering through this challenging time!
One of the greater lessons I'm learning is what being a servant is all about. My sister has not asked me to do anything for her and if I just sat around and did nothing, I don't think she'd say anything to me about it or complain. Yet, I made it my purpose to be here to help her out with the housekeeping and other tasks during this time with her newborn and it's teaching me to do chores with a thankful and cheerful heart. It would be easy to have a thankful and cheerful heart if I were here alone and didn't have to think about my own little ones. Yet, it's an entirely different story when there's 2 little ones in the picture. The temptation is to just focus on my family and just forget the help that I want to give. Then, when I do think about just taking care of my own, I'd stop and think about the help I'd want after the birth of a newborn and how I wouldn't want it if the person helping me had a bad attitude. I'd feel like I was a burden and would try to do things myself. Therefore, I've been trying really hard to have a thankful and cheerful heart so that my sister knows that I really want to help her and that she is not a burden. This is something that I've had difficulty learning in my own home and the Lord allowed this time for me to learn true servanthood.
I do hope that I will be able to take this lesson that I'm learning home with me. I often feel too comfortable with DearHubby and I often take out my frustrations on him at the end of the day. I often desire to greet him with a smile and a genuine hug and kiss despite the rough day I've had, but I often greet him with such a bad attitude and he's always reminding me that I don't have to have such a bad attitude. This idea of purposing servanthood has been helpful in remembering to have a thankful and cheerful heart and I hope I can carry purposing servanthood back to my DearHubby, whom I am one with and a helpmeet to.