February 13, 2007

Verse of the Day:
“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” (John 3:16)

Today is already one of those "I hate life" type of days. How wretched I am to have such a bad attitude, since this is the day that the Lord has made. It's just been such a challenging morning and all I want to do is cry...

I know that part of this anxiety has to do with such a full schedule lately. I only had 1 full day at home last week and every other day has been a rush out the door. I have fallen behind on my chores and the work is finally catching up to me.

One of the hardest tasks I have had difficulty keeping up with is paperwork. My laundry room is just stacked with disorganized paperwork that needs sorting and organization. Well, in the midst of my organizational project, my in-laws filled my laundry room with even more stuff. They just moved out of their 30+ year home and needed to get rid of my husband's stuff. So, I have 30+ years of my husband's stuff waiting to be organized. Therefore, last week, I resolved to at least keep up with the weekly paperwork. So, I set up a gallon sized ziplock bag where I would put the week's paperwork in. That bag needs to be emptied by the end of the week. Well, I normally don't like to use the word busy, but that's what this weekend was. From last Thursday onwards, I have not had the opportunity to spend much time at home or really to do any house chores:
.....Thursday AM - Doctor's Appointment
.....Thursday PM - Mom's' Coffee Break
.....Friday AM/PM - Playdate for DearDaughter
.....Friday PM - Write annual report for Sister Encouraging Sister
.....ministry
.....Saturday AM - Brunch with a DearFriend
.....Saturday PM - Dinner with a DearCouple
.....Sunday AM - church
.....Sunday PM - Dinner with another DearCouple
.....Monday AM/PM - Review budget to prepare for taxes
.....Monday PM - Groceries
This catches us up to today. Well, I decided that before my paperwork would start accumelating again, I would take care of last week's paperwork. I also decided to take care of the stacks of Sunday papers that I have ignored and cut out all the coupons. Working on paperwork took all morning and I'm still not done.

However, I had a chiropractic appointment today which I wanted to cancel because it's snowing. I called my husband and told him that I would like to reschedule. He encouraged me to try to make it to the appointment anyway, especially if it didn't seem like the snow was sticking to the roads. So, in the middle of my chores, I stopped to get dressed and get DearDaughter dressed. We left the house and I discovered that I had no snow brush for the car. So, after buckling DearDaughter in, I came back in the house to get a broom. I brushed off the car...I then remembered that I had not yet picked up my referrel and I needed gas. I only had about 40 minutes before my doctor's appointment and I calculated that I would need to drive pretty fast if I needed to get gas and my referrel and make it to the doctor's on time. I drove out of the driveway and looked at the roads. I knew that our high horsepowered Ford Mustang would not be able to handle the slick roads, especially knowing how fast I needed to go. I called and cancelled my appointment. With some maneuvering, because of the now slick driveway, I backed my car back to the house.

I feel somewhat anxious because I feel like I just wasted the last 2 hours getting ready for this doctor's appointment and then not even making it when I could have finished up the paperwork I started this morning as well as work on other chores. In addition, it looks like DearDaughter has caught another cold from the nursery and she has been so fussy this morning, needing a lot of attention, and a lot of carry time from Mommy. In fact, she's supposed to be napping right now and this whole time she's just been whining like a cat. It's the whining that just drives me mad and it's the whining that just makes me less patient and more frustrated on bad days like this. I am anxious because the house is such a mess and later this evening, we have a friend coming over with his daughter to talk about a business proposal. I also have our income taxes I was hoping to get done before the end of February and I don't know when I'll have time to do that since we'll be gone for a whole week next week...Lastly, we ARE leaving for Texas on Sunday and I haven't even started planning for that yet...I guess I just feel like there's so much coming on me at once and it's so hard juggling a lot of things, especially when DearDaughter just needs so much attention and when I don't have a full day to be home to take care of chores. I don't know how Mommies do it all...Dear Lord, help me...